day 60 - trying to stay positive

Ooh its been a couple days since i last blogged. Ive been feeling a bit over it all - a bit like Taras last post, and finding it hard to stay positive and hang in there.

Yesterday, I was feeling like i was ready to give up and i was even contemplating whether to do my workout. Ive been feeling like im not putting enough effort into the workouts, like shortcuts -and for the plank i dont use a timer, I count in my head (which is prob way too fast). So really, i dont think ive been putting in 100% latley. Conversastions at work didnt help, where the guys were telling me that ill just go on a binge fest when im finished, and , i told my manager it was working and he was like 'really?', wtf was that supposed to mean.

ANYWHO, feeling a bit over it all and ready to give up, my partner told me that my little side lumps by my butt have gone down since last week! this completly turned my day around, and i got into the workout and got it done! positivity and support does wonders.

I havnt been able to post my photos this week, dam flicker, ive tried a gazillion times. will keep trying.

woah day 60 already! go team seXAAAY!

Day 56 - stuck in the valley

Im feeling it hard to hang in there. I think i must still be in the valley. Ive had enough of the diet and the exercise. Im still plodding along but its hard.

I don't like the dinner or the evening snack, I want something tasty and satisfying like spag bowl or something.

Im not getting much sleep, as I have to get up and pee like 4 or 5 times during the night. So im gona have to have an early cut off time for cups of teas which will be hard.

Jump rope in the mornings is not really happening, its so hard to get up early and do it!

oh winge. I need to get out of this valley!

in my dream last night I was eating chocolate and stuff. I felt guilty in my dream but did it anyway. was relieved when I woke up that I didn't do it!

I had a chicken and salad wrap for lunch and I toasted it - its so much better toasted! yum. of course it wouldv been even better with cheese. mmm cheese. oh god.

alright, im gona go swimming tonight.

chow!

Day 53 - Indulgence

so, i had my indulgence...I went over my allowed calories, and now I feel a headache coming on, there is grease on the top of my mouth and i have wierd heart burn! So, all in all, it wasnt really a pleasant experience (apart from the first spoonfulls of the sundae).

So it was kindv good but not. the first chip I had i could taste and feel the grease real bad. the coke was just not good so i didnt drink the rest. the big mac was good, but not. I could really taste the salt in the big mac, and the sundae was way more rich than usual.

anywho it was a really wierd experience. Now, i wish i had just made a homemade burger with grainy buns and had that with a glass of iced water. I feel like I put a whole lotta crap in my body and it wasnt worth it!

I chose mcdonalds because its something i used to always eat, and I thought just as much it would make me feel this way. hoping ill nip that craving in the bud. but Im just scared for how im gona go post PCP because pre pcp i was eating alot of takeaways - mostly because i hate cooking and was too tird, easiest thing to go for when hungry etc. although this experience was mostly unpleasant, im scared im gona fall back into those bad habits.

ok. oh i feel awful. off to bed soon im so tired! night all!

Day 52 - still hungry!

So, nights are still tough these last couple days. cravings are back and im still hungry at night time. Im kinda getting sick of yogurt and boiled egg whites too. Last night I had an extra piece of fruit. And tonight ill put some milk in my tea, thanks for those tips guys!

am feeling really tired, not getting much sleep so finding it hard to do the workouts, getting sick of them.

I havnt had my indulgence yet, but im prob gona have macas! im waiting till the weekend I think. Im really looking forward to it, but then im not looking forward to how ill prob feel afterwards.

Am waiting for my belly to go down. I know its the last to go but still, waiting waiting...

Im really bad at the 3min jump rope, I havnt been able to go 3mins straight, I could keep going, but my legs get really sore and my feet. Although, Patrick and Naoko are right - it can be done.

Have been to the chiropractor twice now, she did some clicking. My pelvis was outa place and my back and neck dont have the proper curve. hopefully this back pain goes away soon.

hungry. hungry. tired. yey its friday tomoroow!

Day 49 - hungry at nights

last night i couldnt sleep, all i could think about was s&v chips, chocolate, macas etc. it took forever to get to sleep! I get hungry at night time and pretty much every night I want a piece of toast. so have just been trying different types of tea.

Indulgence #2 woohoo! ive been waiting for this. although thats not really a good thing is it.

Ive been eating too much honey, i cant help it! ive prob had it on toast almost everyday for the last week. shivers, i need to stop. but its so good.

I had fish for breakfast the other morning with vegies - it was so gross. I dont really like fish unless its battered (thats so bad, I know!), especially not for breakfast. most of my protein is from chicken and egg, and the ocassional fish. salmon is ok.

I just got back from a swim, feel so good after but really lethargic.

So, im glad to know we have all been feeling the same - tired, had enough of the exercises everyday, some cravings are back etc etc. we are in the Valley! well i hope we come out of it soon!

wow day 50 tomorrow!

Day 46

Day 46! woohoo. did i read right, theres another indulgence coming up? cravings have pretty much gone, but sometimes I smell fish n chips in the corriddor and I want them.

So, i quite like the new jump rope workouts, i prefer it this way - and it gives me more of push to see how many I can do in 2mins! 306 is my highest so far, but thats going mighty fast.

the lunges are back! i hate them with a vengence, however in saying that, i feel sore, but it feels good sore you know, like im doing it properly. i havnt felt sore for a few weeks so its good, I feel progress.

My triceps are sore too, and ive been watching them like Patrick said - it feels like im one of the bodybuilders, quite funny but it works!

I dont mind squats for some reason, I think ive become accustomed to them.

still hate the plank.

Its friday again! this year is going mighty fast.

My partner said I look like a new person! there are changes this week, its great!

The email this morning came at the right time, I was asking my partner about why I was always bloated looking. about two years ago now, I was very bloated looking and chubby like in the face - when i exercised and ate better it went down, when i stopped it came back. I couldnt work out why, now I know! too much salt!

Day 44

So the last couple of weeks ive been feeling worried about putting the weight back on and not being able to lose the extra fat I want gone on my lower half. I spoke to Patrick and he made me feel better about it all. what would i do without you Patrick! just having the support there works wonders. pre pcp, when i felt down about things or didnt see the changes I wanted, id have a chocolate bar or junk to make myself feel better, then id feel bad and so the spiral continued. I guess im just worried that im not going to progress anymore cause this is about the point I got to on a diet i did last year - then it went downhill and I put the weight back on. This time I am determined to stick with it, but it gets a little hard mentally with the time and what not you have to put in to get there.

a couple of people at work are really shitting me latley. they think they know it all and have to comment on my diet pretty much daily and what im eating and say things like ' you dont need to diet - just exercise more and eat less', or ' just stop eating breakfast'. I dont even start the conversation - so I dont get why they need to make those comments and get worked up about what im eating! im the one doing it not them. There was one comment where someone said that Marilyn monroe was a hepher! wtf..no wonder there is all this pressure on young girls to be stick thin these days - ridiculous comments like that.

My work mates know im on the PCP but I havnt told them about my blogs etc . hence my little rant. Its not that i think i might give up or anything like that - not at all, im in this fully, but Im sick of the little comments on my food everyday, so this is my thing.

on a more postive note - a collegue told me my diets working this morning and ive lost weight, lookin good. that was quite nice. he was quite sceptical when i told him what i was doin. he told me to just run every morning - but thats easier than it sounds!

The workout last night kicked my butt. had a cry, but got through it. Was meant to get up and do the workout this morning, but was way too tird, went to bed late. was meant to go climbing last night too, but didnt get there.

ok rant over.

Have had a look at your guys photos, you are all looking so good! congrats for day 44!

Day 41 - bung knee

oho, my left knee has bunged up. I dont know how I did it, but i couldnt do the pistol squats or creeps tonight, which was a pain in the butt. so swapped them for squats and jumps. its gone all tight so i hope that goes away soon! can still do jumps but with a slight pain.

I went swimming today, did about 40 laps, was really good, so am gona do that regulary. Am hoping it will help fix my back. My back seems like its getting worse, so am waiting on what the posiatrist says then im gona go to a chiro. man, i feel like such a granny! My new contacts are giving me grief too, so all round, things arnt so great at the moment, but hopefully that will change soon!

heres a pic of my breakfast wrap with egg, tom, onion and avocado. it looks pretty good, but it was actually average. the wrap just fell apart!

Ive been craving honey on toast last few days. Ive been having it sometimes for brekky, but now im wanting it all the time! i never really was a honey eater so thats wierd, but its so fricken good! i know where not meant to have it too frequently, so im trying to keep it limited.

im watchn karate kid at the mo, then off to bed. nite all.

Day 39 Friday

Best day of the week. sleep in tomorrow! although, i think its Thursday for you guys in America today?

right, as per patricks email this morning, im gona start jumping in the morning, its gona be a bit hard cause its cold and dark, but i reckon this will be better, and give me more time after work.

The pistol squats are really hard - i dont think im doing them proply at all, both knees click when i go down and it feels really wierd.

still hate planks.haha. the bicycle was tough last night! struggled to keep my legs up.

I think im gona get out alice in wonderland and shutter island tonight. have been watching entourage episodes too, great series!

gona get into swimming this weekend too and make it a twice weekly thing i reckon.

I went shopping yesterday for work clothes and what not - man it feels really good to fit into stuff a whole lot better and in a smaller size! am lookin so much better in a skirt. woohoo.

Day 37

I look slightly bigger in this weeks photo - i dont know if thats from the lighting or that i actually put some beef on.

I forgot to have my eggwhite after exercises yesterday! woops i forgot about the new diet. when I realised it was after i had my vegie snack at about 7.30pm so too late. woops.

those piton squat things are very hard - i dont think i did them properly. planks are still horrendous! incontrolable shakeing!

Not alot to report on today, except I still feel like a blob - I must be expecting instant fat blasting or something. although, the fat under my butt is slowly tightening, interesting. Im so annoyed I let myself get this way - i remember saying to my friend years ago - 'im starting to fill out around my belly and bum'. but for some reason I just went about my usuall lazyness and bad food for another 4 years. whhyy! guess it didnt really bother me until the last couple of years. now im payin for it! oh well hooray for the PCP! If i wasnt doing this and had your guys support, I would have fallen back into a mountain of chocolate, chips and takeaways by now.

so thankyou guys for all your support, and Patrick and Chen for this great program!

Day 35 woot!

Hooray, i cant believe its day 35 already! it seemed like yesterday that we were the new pcpers! thankgod that first month is over - it was hell getting through those cravings!

My partner and I made some grainy bread yesterday, it was sooo good! had it for my carbs at lunch - small confession - i had a smigen of low fat margerine on it ;). i wont do it again. I took a picture to share but dont have the camera with me at work.

I hate planks and leg ups. Ive been grumbling through the exercises this last week.

So im gona try 8min abs at some stage - instead of the legs ups - the leg ups seem to give me a sorer back.

havnt done my 1400 jumps yet, will do those after work - but should be all good!

Finished the second season of True Blood yesterday - man I love that program!

also, my floor jumps dont look like Patricks photo - Its difficult to keep my legs bent in the air, it is way hard!

I quite like the banana, apple, milk and egg white at dinner, i have this earlier - round 5ish, then have the vegies around 7 when my partner eats, so it works in good. Ive been having yogurt instead of the milk too, so its de-lish. I have the egg white boiled. i tried it with cottage cheese, like how Patrick has it, but i duno about that.

happy day 35!

Day 32

This was me last night after my workout, man it was tough! the floor jumps are hard! I struggled through the leg ups and felt the burn real good, pushing through it tho! and the plank, i don't like that one. I always feel like im not gona get through the sets, but somehow I do which is fantastic. seeing results gives me more determination to finish. Im getting pretty good at jump rope too.

Im looking forward to watching the new twilight this weekend! ive been hooked in.

Hooray its friday! this week has gone fantastically fast. thankgod!

Everyone is looking really good in their pics! hoooraaay! its a great feelin.